I have competed in pageants in the past but this time was very different. Although I was hoping I would be one of the lucky women to take home a coveted crown, I went to this years pageant with a different mind set. In years past I had my game face on, the actual competition was all consuming, I was worried that I wasn’t going to say, do, or be all the right things.
As a result I found myself trying to be something I wasn’t to impress the judges and the delegates. There are so many problems with that when I look back and see it now….I had a terrible time, I didn’t get to know the amazing women that I was there with the way I would have liked to and it quite honestly left me feeling bad about myself and wondering why I felt so so empty when I left.
This time I embraced every moment tried to spend some time and meet and talk to each of the ladies sharing this experience with me and I had an amazing time. I didn’t win. But what happened was actually amazing and quite honestly better.
I was convinced that I would be taking home the title of Ms. North America Globe since I had well over 1200 votes from all my amazing friends and family and I actually nearly doubled my voted the day of the pageant. I thought I was a shoe in….I wasn’t!
My name was called for the first runner up and immediately I though, how can that be? I put a smile on my face and walked to the stage. I was still in disbelief but quite honestly was so happy for the winners. I got to see the joy of the new Ms. North America Globe being crowned as well as the new Mrs. USA Globe. Both amazing ladies and absolutely deserving of their titles in every single way.
As an aside to all the excitement happening on stage, the organizers stepped up on stage and removed my 1st runner up banner and tiara and replaced it with the most beautiful custom crown a girl could want and the banner which read Ms. Canada Globe! So although I didn’t win…at least not the title that I thought that I wanted, I actually won an even better opportunity.
Because of the amazing friends and family that I have and the incredible number of voted and donations that were contributed on my behalf I won the Ms. Canada Globe title and will be travelling to China to represent my birth country later this year.